Attitude

Hey guys, how are you?

Behind me is a very hard weekend.

But, every day I was happy about something and honestly, I don’t know how I fucking do it. Yes, there are times when I just want to sleep everything away and when I cry because I want to be free from pain but I don’t want to go there now.

Let me tell you what made me happy… πŸ™‚

I was with my love, and I don’t mean chocolate πŸ˜‰

I have three herbal cremes for (against?) pain so I was almost bathing in them and bf helped me every way he could.

I ate an amaaazing tiramisu, it really made myΒ  friday morning.

I discovered that I, in fact, love cinnemon for which I was sure I hate. As a concequence I drank a loooot of tea from apple and cinnemon. A lot. Yumm.

I cuddled with the most cuddly kitty I have ever “met”, my bf cat who is 5 months and is…adorable. She followed me around like a puppy. πŸ™‚

It is now cold outside and it was cloudy/raining for days and it brought even some pretty big storms last week, but today the sun broke through the clouds. I loved it…

Every moment I was feeling better, I cherished. I sang to myself.

I woke up. And I see and I can walk, and talk and hear, and I am loved. It is a blessing. I don’t feel afraid. I feel like this is a new chapter and it is only going better. I know it. πŸ™‚

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I am really looking forward to reading all your comments…. ❀

You inspire me!

Yes you do! I have been chatting with my readers and bloggers I love – Hiiii girlssss πŸ˜‰ ❀

And I encourage others to comment and give chatting a chance because… No, because, you don’t need a reason. It’s awesome and surprisingly rewarding πŸ™‚

I learn a lot with chatting with you, you are all so supportive it makes me feel grateful. πŸ˜€

So, in conversations I got ideas for my future posts. Now, I don’t have time for all the ideas haha XD

I just wanted to tell you how awesome you are…

I will write about drinks in Croatia, post a lot of photos so you can see how was my cloudy summer and post some more recipes. Can’t wait!

This is for Zee – who two posts in a row has an honorable mention. Am I off the hook with Monopoly money? πŸ˜€

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Don’t worry, be happy. Even though I have a headache again, I am looking forward to post all the things I have in mind. πŸ™‚

I dare to dream big!

My childhood friend got married. Not ground breaking news? Let me elaborate…

I had three close childhood friends that I remember vividly outside kindergarten and school… When I was teeny tiny I had two, lets call them A1 and A2, because of their names, which start with A. πŸ™‚

We played hide and seek, learn how to ride bikes and climb trees, tease other boys in the street and let them tease us, play any kind of game with ball and dolls, have picnics, play word games and talk all the way until the street lights went on and it was time to go home. We were a trio and we even had our cats to match which we named but sorta forgot about them so poor cats had to figure out the world without three girls chasing them. Then we start school which was a ground breaking point for our trio because one A was a year younger from other A and me, that meant our world were completely different now. Also, I got a sister which turned my life around, and when I started school, my sister started to talk. That’s a trouble. And more so, she was easier to handle so my mum will “give her” to me to take care of her. You know how hard it is to play AND take care of your little sister? Of course you do. πŸ™‚ That was a turbulent time and our friendship didn’t pass the test. I have found another childhood friend who was between me and my sister in age so she could play with both of us. That was a beginning of another trio that lasted up until I got super old and serious and turned 12. And then 13. No way I could hang out with younger than me, I was a TEENAGER.

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But, friendship between me and A1 still continued, even though not as strong as before. Now it was about real stuff, saying hi in the school hallway, chatting when we would meet in the street, catching up about our lives… So many topics were to be covered. πŸ˜‰ And then we finished elementary school, we were super big now. Now we hung out almost like adults, talking about boys and our future… Busy schedule divided us but we sure did catch up from time to time. Last time we were chatting I think we were 15 or 16 years old. Talking about high school and stuff… You know… Cool stuff. We were both straight A students with honors so there were not so much partying involved in our conversations, one more reason we got each other. And then I moved from there.

Years passed by. Facebook happened. I had to open Facebook to get extra credit at online media at college. And I got hooked, like everyone else. I knew that she had a boyfriend and left to USA, I have no idea how I knew that. And one day, we befriended on Facebook. It was of course nothing like our childhood friendship, but that is how life works. That doesn’t mean I don’t cherish it. She went on a college for an astrophysicist in California, which even now as I write it sounds like a movie to me.

My childhood friend got married. To a boy she went to USA with. She is living there now. Her wedding cake was an observatory similar to this one;

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She is an astrophysicist. My gummi-gummi partner and hopscotch rival. Isn’t that crazy? And amazing?

I am happy for her but I can’t help but wonder how much lives can go apart. We are taught not to dream big. After high school you can choose, either work or go to college. We started from the same street and look at us now. I don’t feel accomplished compared to her. Actually, I have a feeling like I am just starting my life. Like I have woken up from the Matrix they told me my life should be and now I am making my own life and getting rid of the things that hold me back. No one told me to dream big, I locked myself in my own mental boundaries. I can see that now. I find her to be successful. Maybe she is not. But the mere fact she dared to dream and conquer her fear of unknown and worked hard for it got my full respect.

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Also, I know me now better than ever before. I know when I go after/into something I dive in. I am learning not to force it, not to push it. Patience is a virtue hard to treasure when you want something so badly. What I have learned is that nothing I forced to happen doesn’t make me happy. It makes me happy for that second I accomplish it. It doesn’t make me proud of me. With patience when stuff happen, I am proud. I am happy. I am fulfilled. No one tells you that patience and loving yourself is important. If you’re lucky they do, but no one can teach you how to achieve that. That is a path you walk alone. Good thing you have me at the same path so we can chat while we walk. πŸ™‚

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What is successful to you?

Having a job? A boyfriend/girlfriend? A spouse, kids? Chasing your dream? Daring to dream big?

Today Is A Wonderful Day!!! β€

My friend Barbara has 6 hours ago, at 10 in the morning gave birth to a healthy baby girl Laura!! ❀

I am so happy, I’ve been up through the night as she was all night in the hospital, but got sleepy and missed the news. Since she is in another city kilometers away from me, this is my way of saying; I LOVE YOU GIRL, I AM PROUD OF YOU AND I CAN’T WAIT TO SEE YOU AND YOUR BEAUTIFUL BABY!! ❀ πŸ™‚

I needed to this now and IΒ apologize I don’t have time to answer your comments… I will!

This is the poem I wanted to publish when little Laura comes to the world, with a photo Barbara drew for it, not knowing that I will do this… πŸ˜‰

The poem was inspired by another close friend of mine, Marija. Marija, you are the pearl, I cherish you as my friend so very much! ❀

 

The pearl in the shell

We are the puppets
In the hands of Life
Swinging us from left to right
Waving our hands to east and west
Pulling the strings from our chests

One moment we’re up
Up in the clouds,
On top of a mountain
Flying above

In the next we are drowning
Catching the air
Trying so hard
To just be there

But, there is one place Life can’t
Control
One place deep within
Our soul

It is the pearl in the shell in the sea
The pearl only chosen ones get to see

Life can try to touch the pearl
But the shell is not weak, not anymore
I made it stronger
Than ever before

The pearl inside will be safe
And sound
It will shine so bright
Straight from the ground

The shell is here to protect the light
Not to hide it or make it stop

Look above, among the stars
Light so bright… all the world pause
Life takes a bow to the pearl inside
The pearl that is me.

We all are.

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I’m on a pursuit of happiness…

I'm on a pursuit of happiness...

I bookmarked this photo a while ago for a good reason.

This is a part of Strangers Project photo, so if you still don’t know about them – quickly – to my post! ➑ THE STRANGERS PROJECT

I saved it because it says:

The 20s are so weird. I feel unsettled and unsatisfied and inspired and scared and brave and incompetent and underutilized and bored and overwhelmed all the time. I guess everyone feels this way, but it’s still very isolating. If you’re reading this and you feel this way, I hope you know you’re not alone.

That is so relatable to me… And I think to many 20 somethings. πŸ™‚

We all in the end strive to find happiness and be happy. I have found this link about 21 Habits Of Happy People. Honestly, I read only the numbers, not the description, but the article is very much on point. I loved the last sentence the most:

BE TRUE TO YOURSELF.

And in that, I want to share my opinion. It seems to me that we are preoccupied with “the search of happiness” and feeling happy in general, and the state of “being happy” is idealised. Everywhere I hear stuff like, be happy, 10 things to make you happy, even in the music industry is a movement of “Happy” by Pharell. I love that, I’m all about positivity.

I know you’re sensing a “but”. πŸ™‚

But! What about being sad? Angry? Nervous? Relieved? Are those feelings less important? Are they less valuable, do they make us less “happy”? I said already in one of my post, how would you know you are happy if you have never been sad?

All emotions are HUMAN. Striving to happiness is beautiful. But life isn’t all white. It’s yin and yang. And do not let your down’s bring the shadow on your up’s, because the balance is what it is really all about.

Love, dream, hope… And don’t forget to look around you in this very moment. You know what often brings happiness? Gratitude. Being present.

At least to me… ❀

 

This is a part of Weekly Photo Challenge and Weekly Word Challenge from Suzie81.

Happy International Day Of Happiness! (And also first day of spring)

Today is International Day Of Happiness! πŸ˜€

And what do I do here on my blog? Share positivity and celebrate creativity as much as I can. πŸ™‚ So I decided to share with you two videos that got me recently. One got me laughing and another speachless. You guess which one did what. πŸ˜‰

Happy Birthday to me!☺

Beyonce sings to me… πŸ™‚
I love this video I found:

She says…

“It’s my birthday today. I’m now 26.” with so much pride. I stand today and say exact the same two sentences.

It’s my birthday today. I’m now 26.

I am proud. Of my blog, of my friends, of my family, of myself.
We will coutinue this amazing journey together and that makes me very happy and blessed… ❀

Thank you! Today I celebrate!

Love, Ivy

Google loves me
Google loves me πŸ™‚

It says “Sretan roΔ‘endan” I know you can guess what that means. πŸ˜€

Do you have time to be happy?

Do you have time to be happy?

I have come across this challenge a while ago and bookmarked it because I knew I wanted to feature it on my blog.

It is called 100happydays and it’s basically submitting a picture what made you happy every day for 100 days in a row. It could be anything… From photos of your beloved ones, friends, favorite coffee place, food, nice view, lovely bench in a park… Anything. πŸ™‚

I love the idea, although I must admit that the term 100 frightens me. It is a challenge indeed. Maybe I will decide to join… That is one more awesome thing about it! You can join whenever you want!

If you are undecided like me, you can also help by translating their front page into your own language and submitting. I did that just now in Croatian.

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One paragraph I particularly liked. It said: “If you try to please / make others jealous via your pictures – you lose without even starting.” It is YOUR challenge and YOUR attempt in making yourself happier person with more optimistic view on life and just stopping to appreciate. Even for that moment when you take the picture. πŸ™‚

Lets spread happiness, one picture at a time. πŸ˜‰

Join here: 100happydays.com

Happiness happiness joy joy

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Today was “the most depressive day in the year”. Well, if it was that will be freakin awesome.

But I want to rant about something else. I cannot help to see a lot of “happiness” theme going on… On WordPress, on social networks, in the news… In conversations about New Year. I was chatting the other day about New Year’s resolutions and stated that it is a bullshit if you ask me. Everything I wanted 6 days ago, I still want! Everything I’m hoping to become, the direction I’m hoping to go…. nope, none of that changed in a day. πŸ˜€

Beside that I wanted to say a word or hundred about this obsession with happiness.

Yes, it’s really great to strive to happiness I don’t deny that. But you can’t be happy all the time, it’s not possible, it’s not a task, damn it, it’s not HUMAN!

What is wrong with being sad, angry, scared, neutral, intrigued, bored…….etc…? If you were to be happy all the time, how would you know you’re happy? You know you are happy because once you were sad, you know you feel good because you felt bad. How that songs goes “…it’s ok not to be ok…”

I want to stop idealizing happiness in my life. Striving to it – ok. But I am a human not a robot, to programme my feelings. And frankly, I wouldn’t even like it if I could.

Some of the other posts that intrigued me on this challenge:

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rimahassan.wordpress.com

thisblogneedsatitle.com – and we used the same emotikon. Peace out.

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vernetteoutloud.wordpress.com

I borrowed the photo from a blog mcwhispers.wordpress.comΒ πŸ˜‰

Happy…happy…happy… ;D

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I have found out about this interactive 24-hours music video about an hour ago… And now I’m addicted! πŸ˜€ Pharrell Williams made this as a first 24 hour music video ever!

It is so awesome… Right now I am curious and clicking all over the day… sunrise, midnight, noon… But with this enthusiasm I’m sure I’ll have my favorites very soon hahahah… πŸ˜‰

Emerge yourself in positive good music inspiring people to dance and appreciate happy HERE! πŸ™‚

…Clap along if you feel like that’s what you wanna do…

Disclaimer: I do not own the video, the featured photo is a snapshot from the video.