But, every day I was happy about something and honestly, I don’t know how I fucking do it. Yes, there are times when I just want to sleep everything away and when I cry because I want to be free from pain but I don’t want to go there now.
Let me tell you what made me happy… 🙂
I was with my love, and I don’t mean chocolate 😉
I have three herbal cremes for (against?) pain so I was almost bathing in them and bf helped me every way he could.
I ate an amaaazing tiramisu, it really made my friday morning.
I discovered that I, in fact, love cinnemon for which I was sure I hate. As a concequence I drank a loooot of tea from apple and cinnemon. A lot. Yumm.
I cuddled with the most cuddly kitty I have ever “met”, my bf cat who is 5 months and is…adorable. She followed me around like a puppy. 🙂
It is now cold outside and it was cloudy/raining for days and it brought even some pretty big storms last week, but today the sun broke through the clouds. I loved it…
Every moment I was feeling better, I cherished. I sang to myself.
I woke up. And I see and I can walk, and talk and hear, and I am loved. It is a blessing. I don’t feel afraid. I feel like this is a new chapter and it is only going better. I know it. 🙂
I am really looking forward to reading all your comments…. ❤
I just watched this and… I had to make a post. 🙂 Today is first day of Autumn, and I don’t like when summer ends.
No matter what are your opinions about Jay Z and Beyonce, put that aside, just look at the beauty of this video, the people who look like stars in the sky, the “Forever young” song, look at the cutie Blue Ivy is… Look at the joy in their eyes when they look at her, and please, look at the ending. 🙂
Everything has an ending, but if the journey was good… It is ok. I’m ok with it. This summer was more like an extended spring, so it left me feeling like something is missing. But, I am not going to be sad for the next nine months. I will find the good and the joy. 🙂 So maybe I would ask a person I just met a whole bunch of questions, but in the end, all I really wanna know is what they can’t tell me – their passion, their kindness, their simplicity and positivity… Their enjoyment in life. Their ability to overcome problems, even the hard, scary and consistent ones.
Daily Post had really negative prompt today. let me bring it here:
“You wake up one day and realize you’re ten years older than you were the previous night. Beyond the initial shock, how does this development change your life plans?”
Not just because of the fact we missed an important part of our life, like being in a coma… But, also because it is supposed that we had it all planned out and this somehow messed that up. And the second is the more important part? No! Life is to be lived, not to be structured and planned.
We all plan, that is normal. If you don’t plan, you won’t have goals, dreams… But in the end, all we can do and it is so WONDERFUL when we do it, is to live!
I have been greatly inspired to write this because my cousin sent me this today. I DEEPLY RECOMMEND to watch it. Be skeptical, it’s ok. Be scared, we all are. Try to watch it. Maybe you understand it. Maybe you understand what is important in your life, and what not. What makes you happy and what not.
Maybe you see how important and beautiful and so ignored one thing is – to really love yourself. To accept yourself. To forgive yourself. ❤