If you ever loved someone put your hands up…

After a lot of Prompts from Daily Post which left me going “Nope.” ( like the one, write your obituary. I mean… πŸ˜• ) finally a good one. Aaaand it was on my birthday. Double like.

First of all, my jukebox brain is already singing so…. You already know how this goes. πŸ˜‰

Love is universal. Love is a savior.

I wish that everyone who does not know what love feels like experience complete and ultimate acceptance and encouragement to be who they are and to build their life around that answer. You who are reading this! Yes, I wish that for you. Love yourself. ❀

In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “I Want to Know What LoveΒ Is.”

Be Aware of The Impact Negative Energy Has

I had THE PERFECT image for this post and I spent an hour searching for it. Since I can’t look at screens again, that is an hour too long!! And I didn’t find it!!

I remember exactly how it looked like so I will recreate it; it showed bunch of people drawn cartoon-ish, they were black and above them there was a black speech bubble. In the middle of the crown there was a white person with small white speech/thought cloud, but the black big cloud was dripping black ink into the small white bubble.

You get it right?

No matter how positive you are, if you’re surrounded with negative energy and negative people, they will affect you in negative way.

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I read a bunch of stuff about this and they always sound the same, get rid of those people. But what if that is not the option? What if they are your family? What if you are somehow stuck with this people in current situation?

I can only speak from my experience. When you are feeling a bit low, or exhausted, or it isn’t your day, no matter how hard you try to separate yourself from negative energy, it’s gonna affect you because you are weaker than normal. Likewise attract likewise. Negative feeds off negative. What can you do?

I don’t know what all those articles about this topic suggest, but what helps me is to find million things that make me normally happy. No, billion. If negativity has billion things to keep you occupied, bring out billion and one thing that is just plain awesome. It can be anything, from people you love, memories you cherish, things you look forward to, nature, books, movies, animals, pets, good TV shows, funny videos, great people around you and far away….. Everything. Bring your weapons out. πŸ˜‰ If you’re stuck try new methods. If you don’t like meditating, don’t! Yell, shout, let it all out. (hehe) Go for a run. Or don’t. Play a video game. Zone out. Listen to music that feeds your soul. And most importantly, DON’T listen to negative energy. Shut it out. Literary. Close the door behind it, don’t let it into your space. Imagine as if you have a glass bubble like the one from beginning and your is white, transparent. Nothing gets in. You can observe other people get frustrated, mad, negative, but nothing gets in your bubble.

I desperately wanted to participate in this year’s NaBloPoMo but again, life happened. And I am not feeling well. So, I will participate now in this hour I stole from who knows where and answer to today’s Prompt.

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Thursday, November 27

Where do you see your blog in one year? Five years?

I have no freaking idea. I got worried few days ago about my life in perspective of five years forward, because I am afraid that I won’t be able to do what I have planned. But then I remembered how it was five years ago and I realised that I don’t need to think about that. All is good. All will be good. I have granted myself freedom, I have allowed myself love. And that keeps me breathe deeply and happy. And it is really never too late to do anything I want to, it just gets delayed. πŸ™‚ It is at times, very hard to get pass some things and to endure other. Then I imagine that I am bathing in a sea of love. Just love, everywhere around me. My love, other’s love for me, love in general.

I will keep sharing. I have this “privilege” to talk about something while it is happening. It’s not, yeah I’ve been there so I did this. No, I am walking my own talk. And I hope I will keep inspiring other people, that is my wish.

Off I go. ❀

Actually, life is long

Today, DP says to fill in the “Life is too short to…..”

I immediately filled in in my mind …to succeed in things that aren’t really important.

Do you get what I’m trying to say?

To succeed in things that don’t make us happy, that aren’t right for us, that others expect from us… To succeed just to feel successful. Just to get that dose of pride that lasts one minute, no matter how long the journey was. And then the mind is of to the next one. It’s not enough. When it’s just succeeding that matters, nothing is ever enough. The greatest success is to be honest to yourself and love yourself enough to let you…be you. Such simple and natural thing to do, yet most of us need to learn it.Β We are not less important, we are not less worthy. You know why? Because we determine the importance and worth.Β Our-greatest-fear-should-not-be-of-failure-but-of-succeeding-at-things-in-life-that-dont-really-matter-Francis-Chan

I can go on and on with examples for this, but I am sure you have one in your own life to connect with. We all do.

Stuff we do to make other people jealous and impressed by us, that shit don’t matter. Drama other people do, that shit don’t matter. Standard we obey but don’t feel as ours, that shit don’t matter.

People say things like, life is to short to be angry, to hold resentment, to waste time… Fuck that! Feelings are not for bargain… If you feel angry, you probably have the reason to feel angry. If you feel resentment, someone probably did you very wrong… Are those feelings bad for you? Of course! But only you have the power to realize that and to let your mind, body and soul determine how long they need to process it and then let it go. Don’t feed it, just let it go. We are not robots.

And I love wasting time. Time well wasted is not wasted to me. Everything is so fast now. When you slow down, you notice how fast everyone else is going. They don’t notice the beautiful thing life is. they don’t see the 2yo twins in matching pink coats. They don’t see amazing sunset. They don’t notice. Are they late for something? They are late for the schedule in their mind.

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Life is long. There is time. If there isn’t, the time well spent is better than time chased. ❀

I dare to dream big!

My childhood friend got married. Not ground breaking news? Let me elaborate…

I had three close childhood friends that I remember vividly outside kindergarten and school… When I was teeny tiny I had two, lets call them A1 and A2, because of their names, which start with A. πŸ™‚

We played hide and seek, learn how to ride bikes and climb trees, tease other boys in the street and let them tease us, play any kind of game with ball and dolls, have picnics, play word games and talk all the way until the street lights went on and it was time to go home. We were a trio and we even had our cats to match which we named but sorta forgot about them so poor cats had to figure out the world without three girls chasing them. Then we start school which was a ground breaking point for our trio because one A was a year younger from other A and me, that meant our world were completely different now. Also, I got a sister which turned my life around, and when I started school, my sister started to talk. That’s a trouble. And more so, she was easier to handle so my mum will “give her” to me to take care of her. You know how hard it is to play AND take care of your little sister? Of course you do. πŸ™‚ That was a turbulent time and our friendship didn’t pass the test. I have found another childhood friend who was between me and my sister in age so she could play with both of us. That was a beginning of another trio that lasted up until I got super old and serious and turned 12. And then 13. No way I could hang out with younger than me, I was a TEENAGER.

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But, friendship between me and A1 still continued, even though not as strong as before. Now it was about real stuff, saying hi in the school hallway, chatting when we would meet in the street, catching up about our lives… So many topics were to be covered. πŸ˜‰ And then we finished elementary school, we were super big now. Now we hung out almost like adults, talking about boys and our future… Busy schedule divided us but we sure did catch up from time to time. Last time we were chatting I think we were 15 or 16 years old. Talking about high school and stuff… You know… Cool stuff. We were both straight A students with honors so there were not so much partying involved in our conversations, one more reason we got each other. And then I moved from there.

Years passed by. Facebook happened. I had to open Facebook to get extra credit at online media at college. And I got hooked, like everyone else. I knew that she had a boyfriend and left to USA, I have no idea how I knew that. And one day, we befriended on Facebook. It was of course nothing like our childhood friendship, but that is how life works. That doesn’t mean I don’t cherish it. She went on a college for an astrophysicist in California, which even now as I write it sounds like a movie to me.

My childhood friend got married. To a boy she went to USA with. She is living there now. Her wedding cake was an observatory similar to this one;

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She is an astrophysicist. My gummi-gummi partner and hopscotch rival. Isn’t that crazy? And amazing?

I am happy for her but I can’t help but wonder how much lives can go apart. We are taught not to dream big. After high school you can choose, either work or go to college. We started from the same street and look at us now. I don’t feel accomplished compared to her. Actually, I have a feeling like I am just starting my life. Like I have woken up from the Matrix they told me my life should be and now I am making my own life and getting rid of the things that hold me back. No one told me to dream big, I locked myself in my own mental boundaries. I can see that now. I find her to be successful. Maybe she is not. But the mere fact she dared to dream and conquer her fear of unknown and worked hard for it got my full respect.

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Also, I know me now better than ever before. I know when I go after/into something I dive in. I am learning not to force it, not to push it. Patience is a virtue hard to treasure when you want something so badly. What I have learned is that nothing I forced to happen doesn’t make me happy. It makes me happy for that second I accomplish it. It doesn’t make me proud of me. With patience when stuff happen, I am proud. I am happy. I am fulfilled. No one tells you that patience and loving yourself is important. If you’re lucky they do, but no one can teach you how to achieve that. That is a path you walk alone. Good thing you have me at the same path so we can chat while we walk. πŸ™‚

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What is successful to you?

Having a job? A boyfriend/girlfriend? A spouse, kids? Chasing your dream? Daring to dream big?

LJUBAV β™₯

Hello! :mrgreen:

What is “ljubav”? It is a word in croatian for love πŸ˜‰ Looooveee β™₯Β β™₯Β β™₯, the thing that makes the world go around. πŸ˜€

The word itself is hard to pronounce for strangers, so I’m just going to put it HERE so you can hear how we say love and HERE how we say “I love you”. πŸ˜‰

As you can see there is a pattern in my posts this week – it is love. I don’t know why now or how, but I have the need to share with you some of my thoughts about love and inspiring videos. And as you can probably guess, I am in love. πŸ™‚ And what is really amazing is that I don’t get jelaous on other peoples love, I just think of my love and feel all soft and warm and tingly inside… πŸ˜€

I wanted to share this beautiful song with you, no matter if you are religious, or if you believe in some sort of higher power, universe, nature… Anything. It is ok if you’re an atheist also. I just want to spread the message of self-love this song has for me. Because I firmly believe that that is the place we all need to start to truly love someone else. And if you have problem with loving yourself, accepting yourself like I did, the thought of that someone – God, the universe – is loving you simply because you exist, is awesome. πŸ˜‰

I love you my little stars… ☺

Disclaimer: I do not own the song or the video.