It is 8 o’clock

Rest in peace good man.

Rest in peace kind man.

Rest in peace, you who were always there to land a hand, to help others.

Rest in peace, you who I never thought I would have to say goodbye so soon.

Your daughters are good, I have seen them yesterday. My friend and I cried and hugged and talked.

And we don’t understand.

Why.

And we are a bit angry.

Because we know why.

And we are so, so sad.

Because we wanted to help.

If we had known….

Rest in peace good man.

You will be missed.

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I would put a heart pendant in the “Time Capsule.” Love is what we have, what we need and what is important. And my love is the only thing I could give to my friend who is grieving.

This post is dedicated to a loving father and neighbor who left us too soon. 

My baby blog in the big world ❤

In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “Be the Change.”

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Year and a half ago I didn’t even think about having and actively writing a blog. It just happened. Literary. Just. Happened. Like it is so natural to suddenly have one, like a next step on a stairway, like a sun rising, like eating a third cookie when you are hungry and said you’re gonna have just one. 😉

So natural. It really is. It feels so natural for me to have this blog like it was never otherwise. (I can make a commercial out of this.)

I am saying a lot that a plant needs a time to grow, and change I am going through no matter how frustrating it gets from time to time, can not be forced or pushed forward. It has to go like a plant, in its own pace. I can water it and take care of it, but I can’t make it grow faster. That’s how I feel about this blog. It is in the right place at the right time. I have no idea where all of this writing will lead me, but I don’t stress about it. I know at first I wanted to inspire a lot of people, I wanted to reach out and try hard to share my new found inspiration and love for life. Now, I have learned a lot of things. I am learning all the time. About me, about others, about society… I have learned that it does not take a lot to reach out, that I don’t have to “try hard”. I can just BE. I found out that I am so happy when I receive a comment like “You made my day.” or “You inspired me.” from just one person, whom I know or whom I never met.

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Natalia Rak graffiti in Bialystok, Poland.

I still want to share and inspire. I see it like a wave of love and positive energy going and hugging the entire Globe. When I see my blog is read in parts of the world I don’t know how to pronounce it makes me proud and humble at the same time. I had chances to “go more aggressive” but I really don’t want GMO in my plant I am nurturing here. I hope you understand that and that it doesn’t sound cheesy. Heck, I don’t care if it sound cheesy, I love you for every amazing comment you leave here. You are awesome. We should like, I don’t know… Blog. 😉 ❤

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BTW!

I HAVE to share with you that somewhere in the process of my country crossing from 2014 to 2015 I woke up in 2015, logged on to see my wish came true. 500 of you! ❤ I felt so good! So blessed!

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Actually, life is long

Today, DP says to fill in the “Life is too short to…..”

I immediately filled in in my mind …to succeed in things that aren’t really important.

Do you get what I’m trying to say?

To succeed in things that don’t make us happy, that aren’t right for us, that others expect from us… To succeed just to feel successful. Just to get that dose of pride that lasts one minute, no matter how long the journey was. And then the mind is of to the next one. It’s not enough. When it’s just succeeding that matters, nothing is ever enough. The greatest success is to be honest to yourself and love yourself enough to let you…be you. Such simple and natural thing to do, yet most of us need to learn it. We are not less important, we are not less worthy. You know why? Because we determine the importance and worth. Our-greatest-fear-should-not-be-of-failure-but-of-succeeding-at-things-in-life-that-dont-really-matter-Francis-Chan

I can go on and on with examples for this, but I am sure you have one in your own life to connect with. We all do.

Stuff we do to make other people jealous and impressed by us, that shit don’t matter. Drama other people do, that shit don’t matter. Standard we obey but don’t feel as ours, that shit don’t matter.

People say things like, life is to short to be angry, to hold resentment, to waste time… Fuck that! Feelings are not for bargain… If you feel angry, you probably have the reason to feel angry. If you feel resentment, someone probably did you very wrong… Are those feelings bad for you? Of course! But only you have the power to realize that and to let your mind, body and soul determine how long they need to process it and then let it go. Don’t feed it, just let it go. We are not robots.

And I love wasting time. Time well wasted is not wasted to me. Everything is so fast now. When you slow down, you notice how fast everyone else is going. They don’t notice the beautiful thing life is. they don’t see the 2yo twins in matching pink coats. They don’t see amazing sunset. They don’t notice. Are they late for something? They are late for the schedule in their mind.

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Life is long. There is time. If there isn’t, the time well spent is better than time chased. ❤